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Ever since David’s childhood, his father had been nothing but a shadow on the wall, an image engraved in his deepest memories. He never remembered his old man in any special events in his life. Not even when he joined the organization to fight for the cause. But why would he remember? His father is long gone, leaving nothing but his unfulfilled goal.

But despite the absence of his father, he still left an impact on him. His unfulfilled goal molded David’s path. Yes, he was nothing but a shadow on the wall, but he was a shadow that watched over his child. Yes, he was only an image in the boy’s deepest memories, but he was an image that haunted him. David didn’t give it much thought. He decided to take his father’s place. But unlike his old man, he felt nothing of his father’s passion and he did not understand his dedication. David didn’t know why he died for the cause. He didn’t know why he dedicated his whole life in protecting that girl. He wouldn’t lie. He hated her and he embraced that truth but his father felt otherwise, and he did not understand why. But that’s why he followed, because he wanted to know. He knew he had to set aside his emotions if he truly wanted an answer.

It didn’t take long for him to see it, though. Soon enough, David saw those monsters with his own eyes. He felt them rip his skin apart. He saw them feed on his companions. But through the horrors he witnessed, he finally found out why his father protected her. He realized that she is the only one capable of defeating those creatures and it is his role to be her caretaker. And having known that, he let go of his hatred and embraced his destiny. He willingly became a shield. Not because he needed to know what his father had stood for, that emptiness had been filled already, but because he held the same ideals his father held onto.

He dedicated his life to it, more than his father ever did. He didn’t even thought of raising a family for he knew that if it were to happen, he would only neglect them and worse, history might repeat itself. He spent every second protecting the weapon, he survived all kinds of deaths in hope that she’d be able to defeat those creatures. All the strength he had, he spent for the cause. Every breath he took, he took for the cause. It was difficult and time consuming but he believed in the cause the way his father did. And no matter how much it pained him physically as well as emotionally he still fought for it.

But much to his dismay, the sole reason for his existence vanished before his very eyes. The path he walked for so many years seemed to have reached its dead end. And suddenly, his days felt wasted. And for the first time in his life, he felt as if there is nothing left. Everything he lived for, gone. He didn’t know what to do. And he had no father to turn to.

With that in mind and the whiskey tingling his lips, he smiled bitterly. Realizing that throughout the years, the organization hadn’t really brought him any kind of joy. In fact, it brought him nothing but misfortune, ranging from his father’s demise to the destruction of the organization itself. Pathetic. To think that all this time, he’s been drinking himself to oblivion because of the very same organization that destroyed everything he ever lived with and for. He wanted to convince himself that his drinking is a way of celebrating but he knew better than to lie to himself. He is doing it because without Red Shield, he is nothing. And what better way to show one’s insignificance than drinking until it hurts no more. He looked at his reflection in the amber liquid. It appeared distorted but it didn’t betray the hopelessness in his face. He wondered how his father would react to his foolishness. He was sure that he would be very disappointed to see him in such a sorry state but he still drank the whole glass dry. After all, why would it matter? His father is long gone, leaving nothing but his unfulfilled goal to burden him with.

Yeah, yeah. I'm a sucker for fanfiction. This one features David II from Blood+.

Did you know that the practice of blessing a sneeze dates as far back as 77 AD? In some legends, it was believed that when one sneezes, the heart stops beating. The phrase 'bless you' is to ensure the return of life to the sneezer. However, another belief states that the soul is thrown out of the body when one sneezes, turning the body into a vessel where the devil can freely lounge. Thus, the phrase 'bless you' is used as a sort of shield against the evil spirits.

A common variation of 'bless you' is 'gesundheit' which is a German word for good health.

Just a trivia for school... I decided to write it down. There are more but these are the ones I like. :)

Ever since the schoolyear began, I've been... busy.

I wasn't around 'coz...

I've been busy before but I am busier now. The fact that there had been some technical difficulties didn't make my life any easier. I've been having a really crappy internet connection because of a busted modem. Anyway, I'm not here to rant about that. In fact, I'm not even here to rant. I'm only here because I've been gone for a while, and I miss this.

My high school buddies:

I have two friends from high school who went to the same university. They aren't with me anymore. The first one went to another school and the other one didn't go to school due to some reason unknown to me. I didn't know any of these. They didn't say anything. The first one said nothing about it, probably because it was all so sudden. The other one, I have no contact with her. I don't know.

Regarding the 90 days challenge:

If you think I stopped reading, I didn't. I still read the assigned chapters every single day. I just didn't post my updates on the pulse because the internet connection was really crappy. Well, it's fixed now so I have no excuse to post my updates. I just finished 2nd Kings yesterday.

Other school stuff:

Last week, I got sick so I didn't get to attend school for four days. I missed out on a lot of things and I am trying to cope. Oh, I failed to perform well in our swimming class earlier today due to last week's absence. Darn it, I can't even swim and I have to swim. But that's okay.

One of my college buddies are celebrating her birthday today. :) Hope she has a great one.

Okay, maybe I should stop writing this boring crap I call a blog entry. Like I said before, I am only here to update. I'm not here because I have some 'thoughts'. When there's too much to do, there's no time to entertain your thoughts. That would be a waste. Although I am wondering if I'm cut out for this course. I'm not exactly the 'caring' type. Darn it. I'll say something meaningful some other time. If that day would ever come. For now, I'll just do school stuff because that's what I'm supposed to be doing... I thing I'm losing it.